Week 37.5

My swelling has continued to get worse. Both feet and toes look like sausages, and it has spread into my hands/fingers too. On Saturday, I got so swollen that I went up to the hospital where I work to have my blood pressure checked. It was 147/91!!! I usually run no higher than 120/65, so this was a significant change. After resting a few hours at home, I checked again and it lowered back down to 130/70. Going to have to keep an eye on that.

David and I have started talking so much about Nico and what it will be like. I'm sure the conversations would be entertaining to an outsider since neither of us have no expectations and no clue what we are getting ourselves into! It's getting so real and every time I feel a little pain, I'm like "Oh maybe this is the start of it!" We seem to be alternating between an anxious excitement of hoping that today is the day, and a crazy panic of oh shit, today could be the day?! I find myself questioning and/or forgetting any piece of info that I thought I already knew! What will I feel? What exactly is false vs. real labor? When do I decide to call the doctor or go to the hospital?! Yikes!

David has continued to be in extra cute daddy mode lately. I'm loving this new side to him! He was talking this morning about getting baby cds or downloading music to play in Nico's room. Who is this guy?!

David thinks he will be due on the due date, August 10. I'm hoping and hoping he will be early and am going with July 29. Our parents votes all seem to be consistent with some time during the first week of August.

When people ask me if I am ready, I respond with "Yeah I guess so?!?!?" How could you possibly be "ready" for something so life-changing??? No, we have no birth plan. We are going to wing it. It's not like anyone can really control exactly how their labor will go. I am excited and nervous for labor and I've been wondering more and more lately what it will be like. I keep thinking about seeing him for the first time and what it will feel like... having him placed up on me for the first time... seeing David's face as he looks at him... having his tiny fingers wrap around one of my fingers... oooh I can't wait!